So, current H (oh dear, people that dont know me would think that's my hobby!!!), called me from S. Africa when he landed and later. He sounded happy and tired, was in a wonderful restaurant eating lobsters and shrimps, by the sea, in Cape Town. He said what he saw yesterday was amazing, places of great natural beauty... I tried to sound upbeat and happy he is enjoying himself but couldnt help myself and told him, I was jealous. I said I want to go on a trip as well while he takes care of the kids, not my mom/babysitters etc. He said "sure, go ahead, go to London"
Forrest, I need to stop worrying about her in the present. This is about the past, the present and less about the future.
About the past I want to see he is regretful and need some questions answered. Clarifications about things that dont match like why he cut it off so abrubtly with her, it makes me feel uneasy. Fro what I read their R was dying for quite some time but right before I found out the emails, it seemed it was picking up again. I have this fear that he is "teaching" her a lesson, he came back to me as a recation to something she did. Not on purpose to hurt me.
About the present it is : In regards to her: Necessary for me to feel safe, to believe he is not texting her behind my back every minute of the day, or sees her when he is late... To be able to do that, I think the passwords etc would help me. The rest is on me.
In regards to US: It is very important that I feel he is INTO me. And that he wants to recommitt to what we had. Rings, I love you's, gestures, being tender would do the trick.
When he comes back,he gets this simple explanation from me. He will have to make a choice. If he says he cant, then I will be spending Christmas with my kids, alone. K
LOL, unfortunately he found out about it AFTER he was no longer with me. He was always very much into sex anyway, wanted me all the time, had a hard time dealing with my insecurities (we met when I was 16!!). For him sex was a need like eating, which meant, he liked to try a variety of dishes... K
Xh is very liberal, hates guns, "justified" wars, republicans etc etc He goes to Thailand for 6 months/year into an ashram I think they call it, for meditation. He is into tandric sex and loves ALL people in general (except the republicans-LOL)
He would never carry a gun.
So funny! And he lives in TEXAS???? WOW!
Have you read "Eat, Pray, Love"? In it, the author goes to an ashram in India and meets up with a man from Texas who sounds a LOT like your xh. Too weird. Two a-typical men from Texas, go figure.
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
He doenst live in Texas anymore mish. He owns 2 houses there but rents them. Most of the time he travels and stays at friends all over the world. I have read the book. I liked it. K
Kerry, Clive Owen is a man I REALLY like, Monica Bellucci I saw when she came by the airport, she is very very beautiful but so damn tiny!! I mean really tiny, short and all. K
