Hope and heartache

[ClingingToHope]

Good interaction this morning. Girls stayed at my apartment. D10 has a book fair today and W stopped by before they went to school to give her $20.

Apartment was clean. Girls were dressed and ready to go. Morning went off without a hitch. They were in good moods. No fighting. I was looking good in a new shirt.

W came in and the girls showed her my little pre-lit 4 foot Christmas tree we bought yesterday. D7 was yammering away and W was laughing and looking at me and smiling.

The only down part was how D7 was explaining to W that we are going to buy four Christmas ornaments on Sunday. One for D7, one for D10, one for me and one for the family.

W said we don't need to buy ornaments, she has plenty and she'll give me some. I told her this is going to be our new tradition, buying new ornaments every year.

D10 started making motions like -- don't say that. But I just smiled at her.

D7 went back to talking away and eventually I got D10 her coat and let W drop her off at the bus stop.

It's times like this morning, when we are all together and things are light and easy that I start believing, deep down, that W will not be able to actually go hire a lawyer, file and follow through on breaking up this family.

As Dottie (DB counselor) says, I'm not actually getting divorced. Nothing has been filed.