You're a good woman, @aliveandkicking, even if you do keep indecent hours (he said, answering half-an-hour later).
Agenda...goal...path?
Energy conservation. I'm tapped out. Themselves are draining it; the holidays are really bringing it out. Work, work, work -- I'm 8 months behind schedule and fall a month further behind with every passing day. At present, resistance is futile. I am like Finland. I will retain my political autonomy but bow to the superior firepower of the Soviet Union.
Is it Walkaway spew? Script? Deliberate cruelty? Mid-life Crisis? Pod personhood? Narcissism?
Yes, no, maybe so. Doesn't matter. If I can create some breathing room for myself, where I don't have to confront these emails and texts demanding that I attend, that I redirect energy, then I'll create it. This isn't for her sake, the gods know it isn't for "our" sake -- a truly preposterous notion -- it's for MY sake. I just don't have the time or energy, and if letting her wind up and wind down allows me the luxury of my own energy, then it's a fair trade.
Will it always be so? Uncertain. Unclear. If it proves to be a losing proposition, I'll go back on the offensive. Even Patton had to take a battle pause to get more fuel.
