Separated, new baby, but still hopeful

[newmama]

P, I was almost scared to mention the New Year's Eve comment because I thought you(or someone) would tell me I was overanalyzing! LOL Not that it stops me from doing it! :-)

So it struck you as odd as well? Hmmm...

About NC--it would be after the holidays. I just know if I kept this up, it would turn to eternal cake eating. If I close the bakery, he will need to make a choice but will be left missing those yummy cupcakes, so to speak. So the goal is to leave a good lasting impression to make the memories rosier. I have been watering the grass over here! Soon it will be time for him to notice OW's lawn is looking kind of matted and yellow. Ewww...wrong analogy to use....

I haven't run the NC/ plan B by my DB coach yet either so I don't know if it will be the right thing or not. But I do feel like I am getting ready to deal with divorce if that is what he chooses after NC. I wasn't ready before. Also I doubt it would be 100% NC with our visitation schedule.