WAS came over last because she wanted to talk but finances. This is the first time we had a face to face conversation in over a month. Things started off talking about the finances then it went to the marriage and relationship. She made many comments that was very confusing, like I never showed that I cared about her, never gave her attention, and never wanted to work on the marriage. I am guilty partly on some things since I believe we both took each other for granted, especially the past 2 years. She said the marriage ended to years ago. She then broke down, telling me how unhappy, lonely, and depressed she is. She says I dont care about her, that I dont call or answer her calls. What does she expect if we are going NC? For the first time, she said she misses me. VERY CONFUSING. She feels that I havent pursed her or try to win her back. I felt I tried the first month or 2, then gave up when she insisted I move and and get on with my life. She said she cant tell if Ive changed, since we havent been around each other, that all she has to go by is the past. After she left she called and chit chatted. Told me sorry for earlier, then talked about everyday stuff. It was a bit weird. Then she asked me to lunch today. Well this morning I get a txt from her saying she wont be able to make it to lunch. I stayed up all night pondering whats going on, first time I felt bad in weeks, coudnt stop thinking about her. I didnt know what to do after she txted me, I was curious why she cancelled. I didnt want to respond because I didnt want to seem pushy. Later during the day I found out from a friend that she was upset that I didnt txt or call her about the reason she cancelled lunch... my brain is mush now...
So she called tonight and we talked. She feels she cant come back, that she doesnt think things will change. I cant prove anything to her, though I know I still have feelings for her. She obviously is confused and having second thoughts. She sent me another txt later saying sorry, that she has to think and feels terrible.
What do I do? Pursue her? Grab her like a night in shining armor?
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M-11y
D talk-7/28/09 W Moved out-9/01/09 W wants D-9/22/09 W doesnt want D-12/1/09 W Moved in/I Moved out-12/21/09 W wants D-1/19/10 D Final-04/15/10