Hi Lost. Sorry you find yourself here, but keep posting and every day you will get stronger.
My two cents - take this time to work on yourself. Get fit inside and out, try new things, take risks. One suggestion my C had was to say yes to all invitations (like the movie Yes Man). Gets you out there, trying some new things and your mind off of your sitch. Also shows H that you're going on with life, and intend to make it a good life.
