Reading this back, I'm realizing how out of sync it is with what I wrote in the first pages of this thread. This has been a process for me, and my thoughts about my marriage have ebbed and flowed over the months.
The self criticism I gave myself early in this thread was legitimate, as are the points I've made here. I did fail in my M, as did my W. She did try to make our M better, but either the way she did it, or how I responded led to where we are. I don't know if things would have ended differently had I not failed. I don't know if my W's failings would have been minimized had I not failed. I don't know if it was an inevitable clash of flaws that destroyed our M. That wonder is why I'm still here. I guess I still have hope that if we could deal with our crap and learn from this, then maybe we could have a good M.
However, the selfishness she's exhibiting has to go or there is no hope. She was acting so much better a couple months ago. I was starting to think maybe we could pull this off. What happened?
