K- I am sooo very sorry!! I can tell you that when my XH moved out the second time he was very, very adament that it was over and he was never coming back. He really never waived (I think he did at Christmas last year a little), but he had OW and that was why, big difference from your situation!! I also let him come back way, way to early, but I was scared to death he would go back to OW, he did anyway and I think if I had waited he might not have done that. There is no chrystal ball to tell you anything, my XH told me "well, if the divorce doesn't work out we can always get remarried", not if OW is around!! LOL!!
Hang in there, I know how much pain you are in, it is awful! I am so sorry this is happening, because regardless of MLC, it hurts to be abandoned and rejected. You don't know if either of those are permanent or not, so keep the faith, never give up hope till you are completely ready to do so, and that is in your own time, no one elses!! My dad sat in my office today and wanted to bad mouth my XH cause of horrible things he keeps doing, but I just told him "Dad, there is nothing to say anymore about it, what has happened is in the past and out of our control, he is making his choices and I just need to figure out a way to deal with him for my kids" My Dad said that my XH is miserable and he will get his when the time is right, that Karma is a bitch. My XH is missing his kids lives, at some point he will realize this and if I am "still at the line" then who knows.
My prayers are with you!
A
Me-40 XH-44 T-21 M-18 Div-19 mo. D-18,S-15,D-11 Bomb-7/07 EA,PA Mvd out-9/07-to give me space mvd back-12/07 mvd out-7/08 back with OW since 2/08 OW broke it off-1/10 in and out of tunnel and our life since!!