WAW turning around? What now?

[LiveToLearn]

PRIDE = Sadness. IMHO. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow but someday that pride will fall and all the pain will come with it.

Somedays everything makes so much sense then other days I find myself confused like crazy.

Move on since I know I deserve better than the way she treated me OR Live up to the promises I made her about always being there.

Life sucks sometimes. I do fine when I am not thinking about the hurt she caused. I do fine when I decide to do my part to save our marriage.

I actually get sad when I hear others tell me "why would you want her back?". If I made a list of the reasons I know that most of them are long term and most of them are to avoid the sadness that is going to come into all of our lives from the divorce. I get sad when I wish I could undo everything that she has done. I feel like if we tried we could do that. And yet... nothing.