7 months in but still a mess.

[LiveToLearn]

Of course it bothered me that she has made the choices she made. I guess that I am willing to forgive her. She is very impulsive and that is one of the things I like about her. I am not going to lie though it hurts really bad and I am not sure how our marriage would be in the future but I am willing to see.

I am maybe just ignoring the truth but I feel that this is not who she really is. She said those things to hurt me and to push me away and not really because she wants them or that it is the truth.

She is lost and confused and I believe that she will wake up. Being divorced is not fun. The extra work and extra person in the next relationship is garbage. I guess I am trying to avoid that. That is what I want to accomplish. I want my family to be whole; I want to be able to see my daughter every day. I want to be able to say that I did everything I could to save the marriage.

Those are my top 3.