That's the thing, Jeff. I have no goals. I don't even know if I want him back. I just don't know if I should be willing for the kids. I feel like he has done so much damage, I have no idea how we could ever recover.

I feel like I'm just going through the motions of life. Plus, I'm 2 weeks post you know what, and that is starting to get to me. laugh

I feel like I have no plan.