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[awest1217]

The doctor wants to see S today at 2:45 which I can't do because I am still at work so H said he could take him and even offered to cook dinner. That is huge and nice. I know he is making a lot of progress, but I am just cautious. I think he has a lot more skeletons in the closet that need to come out before anything else happens. For example, who is this missouri girl? Why talk every other month? It is probably just a friend from college, but still. Who is she? I don't ever remember him talking about a carrie. I knew most of him close friends so who knows. Things like that scare me because I don't know what is still lurking out there.

To really get true reconciliation and not just him coming home, he is going to have to come clean about everything, and that is what I don't know about. Last February is when he finally came clean about the first girl, and that was 9 years ago. I don't want to find out in 9 years something I thought I knew but he wouldn't tell me. I need to show him I can hear these things and not get judgemental.

So another long night at the doctor's. I thought I wouldn't have to do this anymore, but oh well. Prayfully it is nothing. Thankful that H once again is willing to help and told me to stop thanking him because it is part of his job.