Hi s4h...I'm just checking in on you. It sounds like you are slowly moving toward acceptance and toward a better mental position.
Just wanted to tell you that you have friends and people care about you. This journey is likely only the beginning to a whole new life for you, one which you will be very happy in. A lot of work between now and then, but in the end, you'll find happiness.
Your girls will have happiness too, because they have you no matter what.
