Can I save my marriage?

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Puppy,
thanks for the recognition. I sometimes feel like I am not at the point where I can say certain things that my actions are a way for me to get a point across. I am working on this. I know I need to in order for this marriage to ever have a chance. He knows he can't sleep in our room simply from my actions and my small hints. I know he was trying last night, and it felt good to shut it down. You're right, he's not getting in that easy.

Trent,
I am definitely grateful at where I am. This is crazy, I never would have thought he would actually be home! Its so good, but so hard. I also didn't think it would be so hard. I feel like I am a different person. When he left last night without telling me a thing, I normally would have lost it. But I even mentioned to my sister that it didn't bother me, and she said she could tell. It feels good to have made those changes in the last two months. Its nice to not worry about him and not need to know where he is every second of every day. I think he likes the new me too.

When I called him, I felt like I didn't even think twice about what to do, or what not to do. I had a three year old in my arms crying uncontrollably cause he thought daddy left, in my heart my first instincts were to call him so S3 could feel better. That is what was most important last night.

If he tries coming to bed again tonight which I feel he may not do, since I turned him down last night, then I will make it my goal today to set that boundary. I like your wording, maybe I'll practice it today...hehe

So I have meeting with the MC today. Nervous. So nervous as I have to tell him the developments and the fact that we haven't discussed anything and I'm scared for his reaction. I want to continue with everybody's advice here and continue DB'ing cause look how far its got me, but he isn't going to agree. ugh