It's definitely hard to trust somebody when they repeatedly talk the talk but won't walk the walk. It's hard b/c with hope, you can open yourself up for hurt again. But I don't think it's blind hope for you right now - H has now repeatedly made steps to show you that he is changing and has been following thru with them. Now that things are back to "normal", it will be a good test to see if they continue (but helping you out with the balloons and the texts seems like a good continuation). We all go thru moments of questioning what we want, especially when everything seems to be crashing down around us. It's good to see you have your spirits back up now though. =)
Although I know it's not what you wanted by any means, it just really speaks to your strength on how you were able to pick yourself up and tackle all the christmas decorations on your own! =) That was good that you put up H's things too, since it seems like he wants to be home by Christmas, I'm sure it's a good reminder that he has a nice warm home that he is welcomed into.
Good luck with the snow. Living in So Cal, I've never gotten to experience it before. I'm sure I'm not missing anything with the shoveling, but I can only imagine the beauty of the first snow. It definitely makes it feel like the holiday's, I sure. (And hopefully it will get H into action as he lives in his cold drafty house!) But glad to hear that you're keeping busy! Sounds like you have some fun things coming up! =) I'll continue to pray that H continues on his journey of change and can step up for your anniversary (but if not, ice skating sure sounds fun!) Have a good rest of the week. Hope the progress continues!
Me 27; H 28; S 2 Togeth 9; M 4 Sep 11/14/08 EA OW1 Sep 08 EA OW2 Mar 09 EA OW3 Jun 10
