feel like giving up - talk to me!

[luvless]

I couldn't wait to update this morning. Ok so you guys know I've been biting my tongue right? Well I kept to myself last night (refused to be sad) and made a nice dinner and such as you read above. H came home and lately has not given me a kiss (like usual) just comes in matter of fact..not even a hi. I act like he doesn't phase me and ask him if he'd like his dinner now or after he works out? I serve him (havent been doing that lately) after he works out and he says thanks. My friend stops by and we go talk in the room - he likes her and I didn't want him to enjoy our company. He comes into the room blah blah. She leaves and we go to the family room and sit down.

He says, "why don't we listen to some Christmas music" to my daughter. He's still ignoring me so I'm talking as if usual and I tell him my friend is fighting with her boyfriend etc - how he isn't listening to her and doesn't care. He then heckles, "heh I stopped caring years ago" I got really mad but I thought BOUNDARIES. I looked him dead in the eye and I said, "that was disrespectful" and I left the room. He comes in and says, "why did you leave?" I said, "because you were being rude and disrespectful." He gets his attitude and goes to walk out and I say, "don't turn this around - it's YOUR behavior that wrong here. He said, "fine (kinda rolling his eyes) will you come and sit down - I thought we'd listen to some music?" so I said, "are you going to be disrespectful?" and he said, "no." I said ok, then I'll come sit with you.

This is confusing? If he is so irritated with me and hasn't cared for years like he said...why doesn't he just leave me alone? I hate the ambiguity!