I am more just disappointed, not so much hoping. Granted, if I got some sort of Christmas miracle/wish it would be that he would have that "Ebeneezer Scrooge" moment where his whole life is put into focus and he realizes the error of his ways, and some type of dramatic transformation takes place.
However I am smart enough to know by now that it would be just that, a Christmas MIRACLE!!!
Realistically I see no way that he could A) Recognize that he needs help and take steps to get help (counseling or whatever) B) Commit to being the type of husband and father he needs to be to renew a relationship with me C) Suddenly become sexually/physically attracted to me
All in the span of the next 3 weeks.
So, I fully realize that this is the only logical step to take next. Carrying out the divorce. But just because I know it is right doesn't make it painless...
Last night he called to talk to the kids. He is in Brooks (in Canada) again for the week. He told the kids he was driving in a snowstorm. The kids put me on the phone when they were done talking. He said it was 10 degrees and blowing snow. Then he said, "Hey, can I call you back when I get to the hotel?" as the weather was making it hard to drive.
Mind you he was the one doing the talking, not me. I said fine, ok. Of course he didn't call and I didn't even expect him to...
