oh trapt......you mustn't try to understand. Just take care of you and your kiddos and make sure they know that you love them and that they are your priority (which I know you do!)
All the other stuff, will just get you all twisted up.
....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon ~ Avril Lavigne ~ ..."Nobody's Fool"...