here we go again

[Jstar]

i feel like if i let them know it was him it will yet another thing he will use against me later on. very true he has stolen from me and these are the things i know about, there are probably some things i still have not seen surface yet. when i confronted him a few weeks ago, he responded said he was sorry and that he would pay for what he spent, funny how he quickly state he'd pay that, not that he has, but refuses to provide any other support money wise for his children.

we were seperated 2 years ago for 9 months and during that time he did not call or see our daughter, she was just born until she was about 9 months so she had no clue who he was, now she does, but doesn't ask about him if she sees his picture.

to ask him to provide me with a schedule time of visits he wouldn't be able to do or keep. not with him being led around by his parents and that is not a good thing for my kidos. and to have him commit verbally to a financial plan will be even more difficult for him to follow since he has done whatever he wanted with his money throughout the relationship. that's why i need to consult an attorney for those very specific legal questions.

i don't know but looking at things now, he does not seem to be a very good person and the problems we have had have improved somewhat but not to where he demonstrated we were partners financially or otherwise.

being divorced with a child before i hated it. the holiday division, child crying she didn't want to leave me and go with her dad, resenting his involvement with other women, i don't want the same for my little babies. he's shown that he is extremely selfish and only thinks about what he wants and is willing to do. he used to tell me i would be better off without him maybe that is true.

i'm just looking at this d2 me pregnant delievering in 9 or so weeks, no support from him, no contact or care/concern for d2 holidays are passing by quickly.

last time i spoke via text with him he asked what would be different about this xmas and i wrote back, nothing because you are going to feel sorry for yourself, and not do a damn thing to change any situation. i wrote you have all the power in the world to change your situation but you are to full of pride how it looks to your parents, and will just do nothing because it is easy. since then we have not spoken/texted in a week.