if i happen to go into labor before surgery date, at this current time i will NOT have him contacted. he and i have had no contact whatsoever in a week. he does not call about d2, ask about her, no asking when he can see her.

i do want him there if he shows me with actions that he is respectful and support to me. i have not said that to him and not going to break silence at this time. ive thought about coming out of silence to give him that info but kind of waiting and seeing. that's why advice is so great to get.

the credit card companies are asking me for who i think it is and i'm tore between letting them know it was him and loyalty or not wanting him in trouble. not taht he would ever do that for me. yep old ones have been cancelled.

i would love to talk to the coaches but to strapped for money at this time.

Me 39 H 30
d 18 previous marriage
d 2.5 with H
s 4.5months with H
Seperation Nov09
july i'm dim to dark - set internal deadline