Cinco - it brings me to tears to read your words, as I remember the beginning of OUR post exchanges so well...and you are truly recovering now...WOW!
DQ, you played a HUGE part in opening my eyes to the way I was living and how if I would be honest, honest with myself, I could lead a life that would be so much more fulfilling.
I had closed myself off from the world and from Mrs. Cinco. Opening myself again was the key.
We still have our moments, even a week ago we had a huge outburst. We were expressing our feelings though. We had gotten home from a MC session and had made a big breakthrough about resentments we have held onto from when our D was born. It just carried on a home and yet we were not attacking each other, just expressing our pain, dredging up the old hurts.
The next day it dawned on me how passionate the exchange was. Passion isn't the even keel our marriage had been sailing on for so many years. Passion is the release of those emotions. Our being able to talk through things in a healthy way allows us to see into and feel each other in ways that we couldn't before.
Later in the week we had wonderful make-up ML. Then on another night she was showing me how she wanted to be kissed... uh, talk about passion. The best part was that she couldn't keep from smiling and laughing. She was even a little embarrassed at what she wanted in a kiss. Hot stuff too, it's all part of her opening herself to me. I feel so blessed to have her.
