How did I handle it? Well, I continued with what I was doing and I returned his greeting politely. I knew that he would be back. I just didn't know when.
I don't intend to say anything further. I have said more than enough. There is nothing more to be said by me.
I spent the entire weekend strategizing and have come up with what I think is a winning strategy for me because my uppermost goal now is to be healthy mentally and emotionally. DBing was my obsession for an entire year. My life has been very unbalanced and revolved around H's actions and my reactions despite my best efforts to ensure that it did not. Maybe it is just an acceptance or grieving process I had to go through.
I will handle it and I will handle it well. I have mapped out my plan of who and where I need to be. Instead of hoping that my H falls back in love with me, I am going to fall in love with myself, if that makes sense. I am really going to get me FOR ME. Be confident for ME. Be sexy for ME. Not from an arrogant, selfish or conceited point of view. I just think that this is the way for me to emerge healthy and whole. And by focusing on myself I will cease to focus on my H. I am going to be comitted to myself for once.
