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[awest1217]

Yesterday H asked if he could do anything after work, so I said I needed balloons for work today. He said he would get them. Then I let him know if he did get them not to ring the door bell because S had been asking for him and unless he was willing to play with S for a while, it probably would be best for him to just drop them off on the porch. H bought me some balloons and S some jeans and a jacket for next spring. It is like his jacket so S can be like daddy which he has been doing more and more of without being around H much. Scary...

I text H later at night and said thank you for everything and that I hoped he slept well and felt better (head ache...it is finally getting cold and he gets bad sinus head aches. I had one today). No text back, which is no problem and so far today no contact at all. No problem because I know he has a lot to think about. There is another girl he calls or texts once every other month that he talked to on Sunday who I have no clue at all who she is. I just know the number is from Missouri and her name is Carrie (my brother called the number for me this summer). Otherwise I know the calls started two summers ago and that is about it. Also the first major snow is supposed to be Thursday into Friday with more coming on Monday and Tuesday. He said he wanted to be out of the place he is living by snow fall because the owners will have him shoveling perfectly and he hates to shovel (they are trying to sell the house which is why he gets to live there for free. He just has to take care of it better than he did ours. Really has made him think). So what I am saying is I figured this would happened sometime soon and expected it. There is a lot happening at once and really he finally is having to decide. The place he is living is drafty and so he is always cold. Plus he will have to shovel more sidewalk and driveway than at home and not wait. He will have to do it right away or the owners will get mad. Plus the holidays. I understand he is probably thinking and reading.

On my end, it has been a rough night. S is really fussy. He has had much more energy since the tubes as I said before probably because he finally feels better after months of constantly having a slight or major ear infection. He is sleeping in his own bed, although he won't fall asleep there. He has to have me hold him to go to sleep so he hasn't fallen asleep until 9 instead of 8 which is normal. So the fussiness is probably being overtired from not sleeping enough and running around more than he had been. Plus tonight he complained his ear hurt and screamed when I put the drops in...more doctor calls...the surgery was supposed to stop that!?!?!? He cried a lot tonight and all weekend he saw daddy pretty much every day so I think he is starting to miss him. He cried he wanted "daddy up". He just wanted to have H hold him. So between the overtiredness, possible hurting ear, and missing H, he is extremely fussy. I put him to bed about 15 minutes ago, and now he is at least resting. I am going to relax in a bath then if he is still awake let him come down to watch the "dancing show" with me.

So no complaining. Just a long night, but it comes with the territory.