I do love him very much but I think tough love at this point is the answer. I can no longer control what he does or thinks. I have to be happy on my own. I went to a race on Thanksgiving alone w. my mom and sister and my kids and I also went to Thanksgiving at my parent's without him and I am fully prepared to do the same for Christmas if need be. I cannot stop my life for him...I cannot wait for him to decide what he wants from me. I have to respect him and give him the space that he needs. The last thing he needs is a nagging wife..In return I feel SO much better about myself and confindence is finding its way to me. I have a few kinks and issues that I need to work through with myself but he has told me he loved me in a drunken stupor twice this week. I wonder if he is getting scared to lose me..who knows..Honestly...the same goes for cheating..I am starting to learn that I cannot control him..if he wants to cheat then he has SO much to lose...the only person I will allow him to hurt is himself. This is where we are at now..I am giving him respect...space...and time. In the end the decision is his..I will not make this decision for him
