Coping with Bi-Polar WAW

[CountingCrows]

Very pleasant interaction with W this morning. She showed up about 15 minutes early, which is unusual. It was her first time over to the house in a week, and I she definitely noticed how much different things were. The normally cluttered and dirty house was very clean and neat, the Christmas decorations were up, and s7 and I were in good spirits. She greeted S7 with hugs and he showed her the snowflakes that we had made together, decorating a big wall. I took her back to the bedroom and showed her where I had carefully packed all the stuff that was in her bathroom, in case she needed to get to any of it. She made a comment about how our bed looked so much more comfortable than the one she was sleeping in. No comment from me. She saw that I was working on the master bathroom renovation again, and was quite impressed with the fact that I was finally getting it finished. More than once, she said "Wow, this place really looks great." She asked why I didn't do any of this when she was still here. I told her that I never claimed to be without flaws, and that I was doing what I can to improve myself, including following through on projects that I've started. Told her that no matter what future lies ahead, that s7 and I would be O.K. and would continue to live the best lives we can. You could tell she was really trying to process the 180s.

After spending some time with S7, telling him how much she missed him, W sat down with me for about 15 minutes before I left for work. She reiterated how much she missed S7, talked about her job a little, mentioned how depressing it was to have Thanksgiving alone. She said she had finally taken her first bass guitar lesson, which was something she's talked about doing for nearly 10 years. I told her I was proud of her for sucking it up and working so hard at a job that I felt was beneath her, and for finally starting to do some of the things she's wanted to do for a long time. She told me she really missed me, to which I just responded "I understand that feeling quite well." We continued with a little more small talk until I stood up and said I had to head to work. She got up, walked to the door with me and gave me a big hug. I went into S7's room to tell him goodbye and she followed me into there and sat down with him. As I left the room, W calls out "See you tomorrow morning, I love you." That was the first time she's said that in weeks. I was already down the hall, and I just responded "Cya then" and left for work.

All in all, a very nice short visit. It was great to have interaction with W with no negativity. No R talk...no financial talk. I was pleased for her to recognize some of my 180s both in my attitude and physical things I'd done. I think that it was very obvious that I was moving on with or without her. I was also very happy to see her obvious joy at seeing S7 again.

As much as I'd love to read all kinds of things into the visit...I'm not. I'm just going to take it for what it is and just keep on doing what I'm doing.