Kevin, Stuck is so right. What I wouldn't do to be included in something even if it was for our D's sake. Nothing in over a year when this mess all began.
Looking from the outside in you are doing great even though you don't see it.
As far as holidays, I wish they would just be over already. Barely made it through Thanksgiving and now Christmas. I would love for him to do something as a family for the kids sake.