It's one thing to be prepared to face the end. It's another thing to be totally passive about it ("whatever happens with this, happens").
Google and read about The Stockdale Paradox. THAT is how you combine the two outlooks!
You seem to be simply giving up.
Puppy
I'm not giving up Puppy. Far from it. I'm very direct with her with regard to what I expect. I just realize that I can't control her, and I need to be prepared for her to implode before my eyes. I control what I can control, and leave the rest to God.
WAW Using God Me-43 W-40 M-14 S-11 S-9 D-7 EABomb 5/09 Separated 12/09