feel like giving up - talk to me!

[Gnosis]

G - my self esteem has taken a beating

I know that Luv.

I feel especially low right with no control over my life.

I know you feel low, but you're mistaken. You know why? Because only you can decide what to think. Only you can decide what to feel. So... as far as absolute control goes... you have it.

I am not that kind of woman

I know that, you know that... and guess what... plenty of others here know that too!

so I am doing everything in my power to stay afloat.

Great! Start with my previous post. I'm looking forward to that list.

I just stole this from another thread I'm following and thought it would help you:

Seriously, brother, you can look at this as a blessing or a curse. <snip> Choose Blessing. You can wake up each morning and decide how you will IMPROVE yourself and YOUR LIFE without the stress of your wife, marriage, and those issues. You can wake up each morning and decide how you will IMPROVE yourself and YOUR LIFE with your first cup of coffee. Then go for it. The game has changed. Embrace it.

This is the mindset I was trying to instill with you for those THREE things