Living, Loving, & Learning one day at a time

[Treese]

Yes, I agree...my job keeps me going and getting out of bed..

I actually sent my MIL a Happy Thanksgiving email...I did tell her I was doing good, not crying as much....I felt I should at least acknowledge them..after all, it's really not their fault even though they have NEVER checked on me since this whole thing started 2 years ago..kind of sad...

As slow as it may be, I also believe I am healing..if I don't see H or if I don't think about him, I'm great..I'm just living life but the minute my mind wonders, boom! I'm crying..it's very seldom now though..

Everything in my house has a memory attached to it..H did most everything himself..we even had the house built..so I guess when it's all over I truly want to move out..I want to start fresh and that mean a fresh house to create new memories. but for now, I paint, and I use colors H would never pick...he even made fun of my room, which is like and ocean green, I feel like I'm on the beach when I'm in there..very peaceful and pictures of my kids everywhere..

And I know what you mean when you say none of your friends understands...mine just want to know why I'm not divorced yet.I have a divorced friend who kind of understands, she says there are several days that she thinks about what was left behind...and she's sane...lol...and friends don't understand MLC...I guess I wouldn't either if it weren't for stumbling across this site..I've learned so much from everyone here...and I have to say, I clearly have more patience than I ever thought I would...

2 years ago I was devastated beyond belief, now Im learning I am a capable woman, with many talents...too bad H is missing out..you can't get back these moments and my moments with my kids are very important to me..

Treese