Hope and heartache

[ClingingToHope]

The summer stuff comes from my background. My mom was a stay-at-home mom and then we lived with my grandmother after my parents divorced.

So when school let out, it was time to play. I loved my summers.Every single minute of them.

So I've worked hard to make the summer as fun as possible for the kids since both of us work. I hate having them sit in some day care watching TV and playing video games. They sit around enough already.

That sometimes caused friction with W because it occasionally conflicted with her work schedule -- which then caused me to adjust mine even more to fit hers.

On a positive note, I just went through the calendar of events for my summer second job -- working at running races and triathlons -- and seven of the eight largest races, where I'm guaranteed to work, come on my weeks where I'm kid free. That's $2,800 right there. I should be able to fit in five or six smaller events. I may not be bankrupt after all. 2010 is shaping up nicely for me.

And I'm feeling good acting "as if" this is all going to work out. As Dottie reminded me, there's been no filing. I'm not actually getting divorced.