Looks like I might soon be LBS...newcomer here

[brownidmom]

right bid? I feel ya! I am in an "arrangement" too and want to feel married. I don't think anything is worse than being lonely in a marriage.

I can't think of anything worse either. Sometimes I feel like it would be easier to be alone with my kids. At least the disrespect or lack of any attention wouldn't be there in my face and for my kids to see. At least I wouldn't have to prepare myself to suck it up everytime I walk in the door, or everytime he walks in the door. It truly is emotionally draining. And the truth is, while GALing is for yourself, sometimes you just wanna come home and be yourself. And pretending that none of this bothers me is not being myself! I miss being able to share things with my husband. There is just no substitute for that that I can think of.