I never thought I would be here

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I have come to grips this morning that I am no longer focused on trying to save my marriage. Does this mean I am giving up on it and giving up hope that it will work out? No, it isn't. Here is where my head is. I beleive I have given it to God now. And I am placing my trust in him that he will turn it around with his perfect timing. My marriage is no longer the center of my focus - God is. I know God is doing a new thing in my life, and I'm becoming the stronger man that he is showing me that I can be, a changed godly man. I am sure there will be moments that will come up that will hurt, but I can't worry about it or let it keep me down. If those moments come I can accept it for what it is, then turn it over to God. And I can't give in to worry because then I am not completely trusting God.

I continue to draw closer to God, and I pray that he shows me those areas where I need to change. I am choosing to move forward, and the decision is mine on how I live each day and I choose a better future for myself. We all have that choice! I am choosing not to let this situation destroy me, but to rebuild me! I have learned so much and God has been showing me a lot of things. And guess what I haven't even scratched the surface of what God has to show me. I also pray for my wife, that he watches over her and that his will be done in her life. I pray that in his timing and his will that he will reveal the truth to her and stir her heart. I pray that he gives her guidance and that he saves her from herself, I pray the same for myself as well.

I choose to stand on my marriage, and in church this past Sunday as I was waiting for prayer a thought came to my mind - "My marriage isn't dead, it is merely sleeping!". God will make a way for reconciliation in his perfect timing, I just need to focus on him. I'm letting it go.

I had a revelation this morning. This whole time I thought if I had faith, that faith alone would be enough. But I learned that this wasn't the case. In 1 Corinthians 13, it states (not verbatim) -" if I have faith enough to move a mountian, but have not love, then I am nothing". It also says that "there is faith, hope, and love - but the greatest of these things is love." Why is that do you suppose? This is why - because in the same chapter it says - "love endures all things, hopes in all things, has faith in all things..". In that sentence you see that Love - has hope and has faith. So when you have and are walking in love - the rest falls into place and is already there. That is why love is greater than the other two alone!

Too many times I wasn't walking in love, but I thought faith alone was okay. How wrong was I?!? By learning to love, to love others unconditionaly - especially my wife and myself, then everything can come together! I know I have taken love for granted. Maybe a lot of us have... just some food for thought and to get everyone thinking.