feel like giving up - talk to me!

[luvless]

We are definately in the same boat here. The holding my hand under the pillow at night is what he does normally. He has not done it since. Don't get me wrong my H will not call or text and definately does not touch if he doesn't have to. I count the days where he doesn't touch me. I've told him about this too as he did it to me for a whole month when I was pregnant with our last son. It was emotionally draining for me at that time and I'm still scarred by it. He seemed genuinely sorry for that but I guess not cuz he's doing it again. I can't imagine doing this every two months I'd leave for sure! I can't take it. This happens about every 3 yrs or so. The problem I have in this Sol is that I TRY. I am mature and I want to talk about things (not in a long drawn out way) but in a "hey...I wanna respect you" you respect me way what's wrong? Maybe he doesn't have the guts to tell me what he's really feeling. Maybe he doesn't love me and hates being here. I don't know anymore!