Is this the end of my marriage?

[P17]

P17 reread my thread. I think it will give you some time lines on the contact game. You will see how similar it all is.

Cutter, just read your entire post and added one of my own to your Going Dark in the Winter thread. Our sitch's are similar. I await the end of yours (IYSWIM) but I know whichever way it goes you will be fine.

Went to W's work today as I needed a bottle of wine (I said before it is the only place here that sells it). W was working although managed to avoid her all the way to the checkouts. Had a female friend (and she is just a friend but W doesn't know her) with me and she noticed W looking over at us at the checkout. I never noticed as I completely ignored W. In fact I had hoped she would be on a break while we were in.

I noticed a few others in the shop had been looking at us too. The looks weren't happy ones either. Rather 'wondering' / curious ones bordering on disapproving. This was definitely different, as the last few times I have visited the shop everybody was looking away! I just ignored everybody and was as upbeat as ever.

I may have misread them but I wonder why on earth they disapprove of me when I haven't actually done anything! I thought they all knew about the W's A!

Cutter, I also took something from your thread that your mum said to WAS. If I am cornered by W into communicating with her either by phone call or in person for example (ie. she catches me off foot and I can't avoid her), I will be asking her one simple question - is there still a third person in our marriage / are you still having an affair. If the answer is Yes, then I will say there is nothing for us to talk about yet and end the contact.

Anyway, off to see my IC tonight. That will be a difficult visit. I have much to talk about.