Saffie, Ali, sweet Kat, thanks for posting to me. Saffie you are right. I am waiting for something from him that will make me feel it is worth the effort. And yes, I am grieving about the year he was laying in bed with me, being totally in love with her. I WANT HIM TO TAKE THAT BACK!!! TO UNDO IT! But he cant.
You tell me to decide. I cant. My emotions are changing from the one moment to the other. I read its natural. But it is exhausting. And reading you still have dark thoughts after so long makes me wonder if I could do it? K
