Hi guys, I know these are destructive thoughts. Jack3b told me not to proceed if I cant forgive. I knew that. It's logical. I want to forgive. I dont think I can anymore.
She was a relationship. She was "one of the greatest loves of his life". She is " a nice person", "a good person as he told me", she "did nothing wrong". They were living "together" for 2 years and another year while he was "reconciling" with me. How can I forget that? Today I feel (these days)I wont be able to get over it.
OK, I 'll try to let it rest now. I dont believe him that they have apsolutely NO CONTACT as he tells me. I think he judges that he would hurt me but I am afarid the little innocent contact will build up to the A again. I will verify if he tells me the truth. I will pay if I have to, but I will find out the truth. K
