He will. You need to be a lighthouse right now. Just shine the way every once in awhile. Take your time and become very strong and repair yourself and love your family. Start to look at your life again and decide what you need to change. Do 180's A good 180 will be what was discussed on the previous page. How to communicate without anger. Keep reading and posting. And start to offer advice in other threads where you see that you can help out. I would recommend that you read every single thread of everyone who posted in yours. And make some new friends here. We can all use the advice of someone as strong as you.