feel like giving up - talk to me!

[Deep]

Hi, I don't know your whole sitch, just thought I would drop in and lend a couple of words of support.

The abuse is indeed appalling. But I think you already know that. He can only dish as much abuse and "suck as much life" out of you as you allow it.

You're buying into his story, his ego, his script. You may not have "everything", but you can very well have everything that matters. And right now, you're focusing on yourself, which is great. You're worth it, and don't let anyone make you feel any different about it.