feel like giving up - talk to me!

[Gardener]

luv, I've been following along, lurking, silently.
But this:

I was joking with my son and went to smack him. I walked by H and he slapped me in the face yesterday (said he was joking) but he hit me kinda hard and it hurt the hell out of my feelings - see? I just let it go

Is time to speak up! I agree with the appalled reactions and good advice you've been given since this revelation, especially gnosis:

"If you EVER lay a hand on me again I'll call the cops and have you brought up on assault charges. And you can explain your jokes to a judge. Do I make myself clear?"

And if does cross this boundary and ever do this again, do it in the following order:
Leave house.
Drive away.
Call cops.

Keep yourself safe.