Still in the tunnel with hubby

[kjensen]

Hi Grace,
I know I don't know what he's thinking. Its my gut instinct that I'm listening to...but of course I'm in uncharted waters here so what does my instinct know?

At lunch H was OK..Says he slept 1 hour. I seemed to misunderstand something he said about his work schedule and he made a grimace(I don't think he knows that he does that alot)b/c I didn't understand him the first time and said he had to leave to go back to work.

I think when we don't have alot to say to each other it counts as a strike against me...

I'm reading "Women are from Venus, Men are from Mars" and I do think alot of our communication style differences are gender related.

I know I'll be Ok if H decides to leave. I'm not sure if I'll be OK with the timing if it is around the same holiday that he dropped the bomb(Christmas/New Years). I think that is the big compnent of my anxiety-the holidays..the expectations/the fears of revisiting the past. It was hard for me getting all of the Christmas decorations out this year b/c I remembered that I was the one who put them all away the day H moved out....

Just in a funk today...