Hope and heartache

[Gardener]

Clinging,

I'm hitting my down cycle again.

I understand. Been there. People on this board bonked me out of it repeatedly. I know it's a roller coaster, but how deep the dips are and how long you're in them is entirely in your control. You're choosing a victim stance: "here's that down cycle and there's nothing I can do about it." Don't just accept it. Fight it off. Fight back. Count your abundances. Or at least count the most precious ones. Counting all our abundances would take each one of us hours and hours despite the misery and pain of our sitches. Distract, get physical, get moving, change your mindset and stroll - no, strut - right out of that cycle.

Part of it is I ran into W this morning because D10 needed her sneakers for gym so we had to go by the house -- and W hadn't left yet.

C'mon, Clinging. News flash: You are going to see your wife. Often. Chin up, shoulders back, PMA and all that stuff as soon as you do see her. Be upbeat and then beat it. Make it short, break it off.

It's just soooooooo hard to carry it out.

Hard, yes. Difficult, no. Just as some of DB is simple, but not easy.

But I also don't see any progress. A couple of threads I've been watching have shown some real breakthroughs and I'm jealous.

Marathon, not sprint. A couple of sitches? - out of dozens upon dozens of struggling, fighting, enduring sitches?

It's just so much easier said than done.

And like I always say "Everything - everything - is easier said than done"

Give some thought to changing your name on this forum. Seriously. There are many who have (SadMilitaryWife, for one, changed to StrongMarvelousWoman, etc.).

Clinging To hope is an apt, oft-used expression. But as a name, here - how you identify yourself - a) it sounds weak - you don't want that, b) it sounds "clingy, and 3), if you're just clinging, you ain't taking any action, making any progress or moving in any direction.
Just a thought to change your mindset and outlook.

Just lovingly paying forward my own headful of 2x4 lumps.

Keep going.