Need Help again!!

[Augtan]

He left, I didn't give him the CD! We did have a moment of awfulness! He came to bring the kids back, walked in my house like he lived there, said he brought me scallops, and then asked to speak to me outside about our D16. It didn't go well, cause I had to say things that he didn't want to hear, he left and I cried. I sent him a text telling him to just leave us alone, he doesn't care, he never asks about the kids, he swoops in and is "disneyland dad" then leaves without caring or asking about anything real that is going on, I told him to go back to his "la-la land" where there are no problems because when there are he just walks out, drives away, leaves, etc.

I know this was not what I was "suppose" to say to him, but honestly, I don't care anymore what I say or do to him, this is about me now and I am going to do whatever I want that makes me feel better and makes me able to move on and leave him in the past. He is not a quality person, MLC or not! He is a horrible example to his kids, an awful role-model, he does everything we try and try to teach our kids not to do. I just want to make myself better, and move on from a very toxic man. I know this is what I should be doing and should have been doing from the beginning and most of the time I am and I was, but with kids it is harder, especially when someone is hurting them so much on so many levels! Anyway, I will keep coming here, for support on making myself the best I can be and to help me remain as dark as possible, not to get him back, but to heal myself!!

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