Still in the tunnel with hubby

[kjensen]

H doesn't have many friends at all and his best friend moved out of the country for a few years in 8/08...before this all came to a head.

I am encouraging him to do things with his two guy friends-they work out mostly and get coffee.

Update:
H was in a pretty good mood on Sunday-said he felt better than he has in weeks. He's been off the A/D for about 2 weeks now so its pretty much out of his body now. I asked H why he thought he felt better and he thought time had passed and that helped. I asked him if he was feeling better b/c he'd made a decision to leave..he asked if we really had to talk about that now and I answered "no"...

I did tell H that I thought it was interesting that he feels better now and I thought the last 2 weeks were worse between us, that I felt constantly criticized for how/what I say..He said he didn't mean to make me feel that way and if that's the message I got I'm missing the picture-no elaboration there as i wanted to avoid any arguing... H did agree that he gets surly if he drinks so he is going to stop.

This is all after his therapy on Friday so I'm not sure if these insights and sharing have come from that or not. His workout buddy (who I'm also friends with me)did tell me via email last Wednesday before Thanksgiving that H was talking about moving out , but H didn't mention it Friday(after therapy) when working out...

So I am feeling very vulnerable. I feel like I'm about to relive the worst christmas of my life. I may be my own worst enemy here if H is turning a corner and I'm becoming more insecure inside so I'm trying hard to stave of my mental demons...still feeling alot of stress and emotion though.

maybe he just had a good day. who knows how today will be.