Hope and heartache

[ClingingToHope]

I'm hitting my down cycle again. Dropped girls off at school and have the Monday after their weekend blahs. Part of it is I ran into W this morning because D10 needed her sneakers for gym so we had to go by the house -- and W hadn't left yet.

Funny, W used to go into work at the crack of dawn. Now she doesn't get there right until she has to.

I've been wondering how this works again? I know the theory. Keep contact to a minimum. Make her call you, make her come to you. Make her feel your absence and see what she's been missing.

It's just soooooooo hard to carry it out. I haven't called or texted or pursued in any way since Oct. 6 -- so I have a two-month anniversary of sorts coming up.

But I also don't see any progress. A couple of threads I've been watching have shown some real breakthroughs and I'm jealous.

I know TT, focus on me, focus on me. It's just so much easier said than done.