Separated, new baby, but still hopeful

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Let's see.. another small but possible "overanalyical" observation. At times our bodies touched when he was holding our son and I kissed him goodbye or when I held him and he came over to pick him up or say goodbye. In the past, I would have pulled away quickly if his hands touched mine or our legs touched. This time I just let them touch. He didn't pull away either. I KNOW that's not a big deal, but I wonder if he noticed I wasn't pulling away like I have in the past.

Newmama,

You need to let this stuff wash over you. I could tell you countless stories about me and W before I went NC being close and touching but one I will re-iterate here as it's graphic and is also completely meaningless (now).

My W came over a couple of months ago. We went out for some food, came back, she bent over to go into the cupboard to get the plates. Without being too graphic, her bum was in the air and I had to squeeze past. The only way to do that was to push, hard at her bum, as I was going past. It was very graphic and very sexual. If I had done the same thing to you, a friend or anybody else they would have hit the roof. How many people tolerate you pushing your crotch at them? Nobody. Especially not a WAW who has a new man and doesn't want to be near you.

Last time W was here she sat right next to me on the sofa. This time, I felt uncomfortable. Things had come full circle. I believe she was trying to be close to me and not the other way about.

My point is that he could have wanted to be close to you for a thousand reasons (as PDT said to me about the above statement, maybe my W was horny!). He may not have even noticed.

I don't say this to be nasty. I say this as I know what you are doing when you analyse this stuff - you get hope. I've been there, got the T-shirt as has most of the people on here. At the end of the day, the only person that this hope kills, is you.

Look on those things as being nice or being close or just even being a coincidence. Please don't read anything into them as there is unlikely to be anything there to read. (I actually don't believe I'm saying this stuff ... how far have I come in a few months!?!)