I've continued to focus on me, being strong and independent, making myself happy, and not taking crap from my H. My new attitude is having an immediate effect. My H actually invited me to his role playing game tomorrow night. This is huge. For the eight months since the bomb, he has consistently made it clear that I am not invited to his activities. He often even gets defensive when I ask what he's doing so I've progressed from making myself not ask, to not even caring anymore. It is at this point that he has invited me.
It was more of "you're welcome to come and play if you like" than a "I'd looooove for you to be there I miss you so much oxoxoxox" which of course I dream of. But between that and touching me twice the other night, I notice a shift from the usual "Leave me alone" stance he's had.
THANK YOU DR AND DB!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok, it's not that big of a deal. But I'm amazed. When I really am getting stronger and just not caring anymore not sitting around missing him and wanting to call and talk = when I walk away or reject him when he's rude mean or sarcastic instead of taking it in = when I focus on life with or without him, focus on making myself happy = like all of you constantly say.....well, let's just hope it continues.
