For those with a WAS...How do you cope?

[courts0818]

Today is Day 4 of my mission to be a consistent buster. lol

Today was good. DD and I went to church. Then, we went to my sister's for another Thanksgving feast. We also picked up some new Christmas decorations. We bought a little pink tree for her bedroom and decorations for it - so cute. : )

Christmas could be sad for me this year, but I'm making the choice to be happy. I'm not focusing on the fact that H is choosing to not spend time with us - of course that hurts! But, instead I'm doing really special things for my DD to make this Christmas happy, special and magical for her - which also makes it good for me.

I'm still doing well. But, it does hurt that tomorrow morning will be 3 days since I've heard from H (since he last texted). The fact that he can just totally blow us off (we haven't seen him since Wednesday and today is Sunday) just shows me that he is in such a fog. How else could he justify in his mind not being around at all for Thanksgving and not being around when all the Christmas decorations are going up and the season is in full swing?

I really wish that he would go back to church. He needs God in his life right now more than he needs anything else.

3 things I'm thankful for today:
1. My church - that "big people" church upstairs is amazing, exciting and relavant and that "little people" church downstairs (Children's Ministry) is just as fantastic for my DD.
2. Dinner at my sister's today - love her and my nephews.
3. That I feel love and excitment in my heart this year for Christmas (and I'm not depressed even though I could be).