well it's the eve of he's going to be flip out when my daughter is not at the exchange. i set a boundary last wed. that said if he could not pick up our daughter at the house allow her to sleep longer, rather have her be in teh cold at my work waiting for him to show up, i would find a place for her to do. i made that arrangmentment.

i got back in contact with one family member who loves our daughter dearly, she works at a daycare, she only has to be there for a few hours a day, i will know what my daughter does all day, diapers, food, played, won't have to see the h or his mother, and i'm hoping d2 will like going, plus my niece will be there with her.

the situation with my niece has been strained by h relationship, my h and her boyfriend would work together, apprently after we spoke today, my h has blown him off, owes him a lot of money, gee he owes everyone. i told her oh he's been paid more then likely and gave money for his precious truck and money to his parents, because i have not seen a single penny. i found out h took one of my credit cards months ago and charged it up, hid the bill for a few months, now that i have it, called him on a few weeks ago. h apologized and said he would pay for what he charged. huh, he has money to give to his parents, to his workers, pay for his truck but nothing in the form of support for his family-that is his wife, d2 and soon to be son. i'm really not shocked but just thinking, if he can lie about using my credit card, disrespect and blow off paying my niece's boyfriend, not give me any support money or help with household things that i can't do, what else has he lied about? i can only imagine.
my niece says to let teh credit card company know it was my h who charged teh card, did not have permission is not a user on my card, nothing and let the pieces fall where they may in teh fraud department.

i'm sitting her tonight since daugher didn't take a nap, niece was over for most teh day, daughter didn't want to miss anything so she's sleeping now, (funny silly thing she does) hmm maybe i should set some goals. i have a script to say to h about the birth, and if i ask myself, what will h be doing that would show me he was meeting my goal, i think i should write them down and have them handy.


Me 39 H 30
d 18 previous marriage
d 2.5 with H
s 4.5months with H
Seperation Nov09
july i'm dim to dark - set internal deadline