Detachment

[avermont]

Really failing at detaching this past few days. Time to put the rubber band back on the wrist and give it a good snap when thoughts turn to X.

Part of the trouble is living in such a small town. As I am driving my eyes keep cutting over to the oncoming traffic to see if I recognize his or OW car.

I keep reminding myself that mental discipline of detaching is the same as physical exercise of weight lifting--which I do. Can't improve physical muscles without constant repetition--same thing goes for my mind. Hasn't worked thus far, but I keep trying!

Made some progress this weekend--went to "our" bar with a posse of friends WITHOUT checking in with X. The bartenders/friends were glad to see me and the owner/friend told me I looked "gorgeous". So that's something!

I noted another post that said that we can detach from other things, like work. I have certainly found that with this emotional stress I have detached from work issues that would normally have me up the wall with stress and reaction and total craziness. Now... I just don't care. There the situation is...I am dealing calmly and without emotional investment. If only I could apply that to my X and OW! Time, right?