Cutters story

[Gardener]

cutter,

I have actually had a tough couple of weeks.

Sure sounds it.

I have also became emotionaly attached to the girl I went out with back in early Oct. So I have kept my encounters with her apart. Like seeing each other every few weeks and only call a day before we meet up again. Mind you I have used these feelings to help myself heal from the effects of the affair and to build my self esteem. I am not going to enact on these feelings. As I enjoy our friendship. Its the oldest friendship I have outside of my immediate family. Sometimes when were together I think that she is struggling with the same feelings. But this is not the time for such things.

Be careful, here. But you know that.

Hugs and the random contacts of hands touching and other rubbing that happens when doing stuff all the time. I find I miss that contact the most. As WAS and I always were touching each other that way through out our marriage up to July. The hand rubbing on the arm. That was always enjoyable. We always smiled when that happened.

Yep. Yep.

I know I sound like I am in a bad spot right now but I am not. Reflection can be worth while. I am not cycling. Actually I do not know what exactly I am feeling tonight. But I just needed to reach out. And right now this place is where I feel safe. Guess I am dealing with some waves.

I don't think anyone on here would read this and think you're in a bad spot or cycling.

I, for one, understand exactly where you're coming from.